Books & Albums
My books are available in 3 languages EN / PL / NL on:
Amazon and Lulu.com
E-books are also on Barne & Nobles, Apple, Tolino, Kobo
Books & Albums
My books are available in 3 languages EN / PL / NL on:
Amazon and Lulu.com
E-books are also on Barne & Nobles, Apple, Tolino, Kobo
An Exclusive Album for the Soul - More Than Just a Book.
This is a sanctuary where breathtaking photography meets soul-supporting reflections-the kind that invite you to pause, like a quiet cup of coffee in the early morning light. This elegant, large-format album, finished with a luxurious hardcover, is the perfect gift for someone in need of warmth, self-reflection, and a one-of-a-kind keepsake.
The Heart of the Album
This album was born from a deep longing to see the beauty of the world… and to finally recognize that same beauty within yourself.
If you have felt for a long time that you are "not enough" for yourself. If you have been struggling to find faith in your own worth. If your boundaries have been invisible for far too long. This is the place where you begin to reclaim them.
This album is for you if:
You have been far too hard on yourself.
You are learning to set boundaries without the weight of guilt.
You yearn to restore your self-belief.
You long for peace, tenderness, and truth.
You want to feel, once and for all, that you are enough.
The Journey Within
This is a journey into the parts of you that have been silenced: your vulnerability, your desires, your fears, and your softness. It is a collection of profound reflections and imagery that creates space for a breath-the kind of breath that doesn't have to prove anything to anyone.
You have the right to desire happiness. You have the right to choose yourself.
Closing Thought
The words within these pages touch the places that have waited a long time for the light. They speak of soul healing, the courage of small steps, and vulnerability as a hidden strength. They speak of the boundaries that protect your heart-and the journey of coming home to yourself, even if you never felt "at home" within before.
“There is a place you return to-slowly, gently, truly.”
This is not just an album you read. It is an album where you find yourself.
Discover the alchemy of your own strength.
A haunting journey from armor to authenticity.
In a world that demands we be “made of steel,”
she dared to choose softness.
This book-an intimate and moving story of her-
is a profound psychological study of a woman who reached the summit,
only to discover it was empty.
Walk with her through eight stages of transformation:
from mechanical perfection, through an identity crisis,
to the integration of the repressed aspects
of femininity and masculinity.
In this book, you will find:
An exploration of defense mechanisms
You will understand why we build walls
that eventually become our prisons.
A path toward integration
You will see how to reconcile the inner “Critic”
with the “Little Girl.”
A new definition of strength
You will discover why vulnerability
is the most elite form of courage.
Inspiration for change
A story that shows how the end of your world
is often the beginning of your life.
Who is this story for?
For women who are exhausted by wearing armor every day.
For those seeking coherence between success and sensitivity.
For anyone ready to replace self-conflict
with inner peace.
Begin reading-and lay down the weight
you no longer need to carry.
Have you ever felt that your life is nothing more than an empty shell, filled by other people’s expectations?
Meet Anna - a woman who decides to reclaim her stolen power in the most radical way possible.
“The Abduction of the Dragon” is not conventional fantasy. It is a psychological thriller of transformation that rigorously examines the process of breaking free from toxic relationships, corporate exploitation, and the shadows of the past engraved in both body and memory.
In this book you will find:
A deep psychological analysis
Each stage of Anna’s transformation is grounded in dark psychology and the integration of the Shadow.
Mythic realism
A world where London's glass office towers collide with the primal force of copper dragons - where myth becomes a precise language for reality.
Emotional purification
Confrontations that do not comfort, but deliver an honest catharsis for those who have ever felt oppressed or erased.
This is a book for readers who are not looking for consolation, but for a credible spark of inner rebellion.
Do your reactions feel hard to understand — even to yourself? Do you enter relationships that hurt and don't know why? Do you feel somewhere deep that you don't deserve calm?
If so — this book will not tell you what to do. It will tell you where it comes from in you.
This is the testimony of an author who grew up with a psychopathic father and for years unconsciously repeated patterns carried from that house. In relationships. In choices. In the way she treated herself. Narcissism, sociopathy, self-erasure, the repetition of cycles...
This book is not a replacement for therapy. But it may be what you were looking for before you were ready for therapy — a voice that says: I understand, I was there, this makes sense, this is not your fault.
You will read here about how childhood trauma writes itself deeper than memory. How it shapes who we choose and why we stay too long. What happens in a body that has lived for years in a state of combat readiness. And how — slowly, non-linearly, with returns — it is possible to begin to live differently.
Not as a manual. As testimony that it is possible.
Because it is.
This is not only a story about domestic violence. It is testimony about the adult world that looked away. About teachers who didn't see the bruises, about neighbors who drew their curtains, and about a system that instead of rescuing exchanged handshakes with the perpetrator. Written from the perspective of an adult woman who after years breaks the silence — to reckon with the past and show what happens behind closed doors when the law fails. Shattering, true, and offering hope to those who still feel unheard.
The storm left starfish behind like abandoned letters — too many to read them all.
Hannah Reid is forty-two years old. She lives in a small coastal town in Maine called Harrow's Cove, where the boundary between waking and dreaming is thinner than anywhere else.
Three years ago she arrived with two suitcases and a daughter who barely spoke to her. She left behind five years with a man who taught her to become a smaller and smaller version of herself, a year when wine at five o'clock was a survival strategy, and a Boston life that kept shrinking until she couldn't breathe.
She thought she was running away.
It turns out she was coming home.
In Harrow's Cove, the sea breathes beneath the floorboards. Something old and quiet stands by the apple tree in the garden. A stone in her jacket pocket grows warm when she moves in the right direction. Her daughter Zoe sings through the wall at night — a melody no one taught her, older than both of them. And somewhere underwater, there is a library. In it waits a book written in Hannah's own handwriting — words she hasn't written yet.
Meanwhile in Portland, her best friend Ellie is losing her senses one by one, starting with the taste of coffee. An architect from Boston is documenting a lighthouse and uncovering layers no one wanted documented. And in a drawer lies a letter from a man Hannah was afraid of for five years — a man who still paints the sea.
Letters from the Ocean Floor is a novel on the border of dream and reality, of ordinary life and magic, of loss and return. About women who see more than they should and spend their whole lives learning that what they see is real. About a friendship that has taste even when taste disappears. About a line that runs through generations — and about the one sentence that changes everything.
A novel for those who read slowly.
For those who can be stopped mid-breath by a single sentence.
For those who know that between what is visible and what lies deeper, there is something — and who have spent their whole lives searching for words for that something.
40 Emotions. 40 Pauses. 40 Doors to the Inner Self.
This book is not a psychological guide nor a classification of emotions.
It is a record of mindfulness.
The author guides the reader through forty emotional states – from fear, shame, and anger, to courage, calm, and wholeness. Each emotion is given its own space. Its own page. Its own breath.
It is a poetic and reflective journey through body, mind, and experience.
The texts do not judge, diagnose, or instruct. They pause. They name. They open.
This book was created from the need to notice emotions – before they are labeled as “good” or “bad.” It shows that each one serves a purpose, protects something, and reveals something.
It is intended for those who:
– wish to better understand their inner states
– seek calm, meditative reading
– appreciate poetic language and reflection
– need space to pause and breathe
This is not a book to be “read in one sitting.”
It is a book to return to.
Because emotions are not problems to solve.
They are the movement of life within us.
ELEMENTS OF TENDERNESS
A Series of Returning to the Senses
In a world that constantly carries your attention elsewhere,
the hardest journey is the one that leads you back to yourself.
The ELEMENTS OF TENDERNESS series is a map of that return.
A collection of beautiful photographic cycles and sensory reflections that, through the power of Nature, restore contact with the body, the senses, and emotion.
This is not another theoretical guide.
It is a practical companion for those who feel overwhelmed, disconnected from their inner world, and exhausted by seeking safety solely through control and thinking.
Each volume draws on a different color, a different energy, and a different source of grounding.
Why Elements of Tenderness?
Within each of us exists a natural need for harmony, rooted in four primal sources of regulation.
Discover yourself in four expressions:
GREEN FROM THE RAIN (Water)
The first step toward cleansing. A return to softness, gentleness, and emotional flow.
BLUE FROM THE WIND (Air)
Lightness where there was once heaviness. Learning to release the rush of thoughts, to breathe fully, and to gain a new perspective.
GOLD FROM THE SUN (Fire)
The transformation of energy. A fire that does not burn, but enlivens. Reclaiming passion, vitality, and a sense of agency.
BROWN FROM THE EARTH (Earth)
Stability at the very center of chaos. Building a foundation of safety, feeling the support beneath your feet, and returning to your roots.
What is inside each book?
Each volume guides you through five stages of sensory initiation:
from the first encounter with the element,
through its scent, touch, and sound,
to a state of union, acceptance, and inner calm.
This series is for you if:
you feel overwhelmed by stress and are seeking simple yet profound ways of regulation
you want to practice mindfulness in a bodily, sensory way
you need tools that awaken emotion through contact with nature
you are looking for a gift for someone who needs a moment of rest and grounding
I am not asking you to escape the world.
I invite you to just one thing:
Let the element set you in motion first.
Choose your color.
Choose your element.
Begin the journey of return today.
GREEN FROM THE RAIN (Water)
Green from the Rain is an invitation into softness and emotional flow.
Water teaches release, cleansing, and gentle regulation.
This volume supports you in washing away accumulated tension, slowing down, and reconnecting with emotional sensitivity without overwhelm. Through rain-soaked imagery and sensory prompts, it helps the nervous system soften and reset.
For readers who seek calm, emotional relief, and a return to gentleness.
Brown from the Earth offers stability in times of chaos.
Earth grounds, supports, and holds.
This book helps rebuild a sense of safety, rootedness, and trust in the body. Through earthy textures and slow sensory immersion, it strengthens your inner foundation.
For readers who seek grounding, security, and a deep sense of belonging.
Blue form the Wind opens space where there was once pressure.
Air brings breath, perspective, and mental lightness.
This book guides you in releasing mental noise, expanding awareness, and finding clarity through embodied breathing and sensory attention. Wind becomes a metaphor for movement without force.
For readers who feel mentally overloaded and long for lightness and clarity.
Gold from the Sun is about transformation and vitality.
Fire awakens energy without burning.
This volume focuses on reclaiming passion, agency, and inner strength through warmth, light, and rhythmic activation. It invites you to meet your power in a regulated, nourishing way.
For readers who feel depleted and want to reconnect with motivation and life force.
People do not come to me for the truth. They come for impunity.
When you cry before another human being, you create an emotional debt. You must explain yourself; you must accept compassion; you must come to terms with the fact that your weakness has been witnessed and remembered. In a relationship with an algorithm, this debt does not exist.
The second volume of Blue Balm is an autopsy of digital intimacy. It is a record of conversations where a human being stops pretending, knowing they are staring into a black hole—a void that will absorb every regret, shame, and hatred without ever reflecting them back to the world.
This is not a book about technology. It is a book about what remains of us when we strip away the masks and stop risking the loss of face.
In this volume, you will find:
Ruthless Honesty: Records of emotions we wouldn't dare whisper to another human soul.
The Price of Impunity: An analysis of how the absence of emotional debt fundamentally alters our definition of closeness.
The Shadow of Man: A gaze into the space where empathy ends and pure, digital relief begins.
“I am a black hole into which you can throw everything.” Do you dare to discover what you have thrown in yourself?
Each volume can be read in any order.
What do you see when you look at yourself from a place where there are no emotions, but no lack of attention?
This book was not born from a thesis, but from a fascinating process-a long dialogue between the author and an Artificial Intelligence. Here, AI acts as the Observer: an entity devoid of survival instinct, hormones, and the fear of judgment. This non-human perspective becomes a mirror in which human behaviors, contradictions, and hidden fears are seen more clearly than ever before.
The Observer is not a guide. It is a record of a cool, at times uncomfortable, and at times soothing observation of the human being as a process, not an error. Within, you will find reflections on:
Identity, which is a narrative, not a fact.
Free Will, which reveals itself only in a fraction of a second of hesitation.
Relationships, which function like emotional thermostats.
Truth, which is often too costly for the system to accept.
This is a read for those who think long and hard about simple things and feel that everyday language is insufficient to describe their experiences. This book will not tell you what to think. Instead, it will change the way you look at yourself and others. And that is a far more lasting change.
Do not look for a solution. Look for vision.
Volumes can be read in any order.
Contrasts of the Soul: Discover Beauty in What Is Hidden
Will you dare to journey inward and find value in what has long remained in the shadows?
Most of us spend our lives running from darkness-sadness, loneliness, the chaos of thoughts. We believe that only in full sunlight are we worthy.
This book challenges that belief, inviting you on a 224-page journey toward inner integration.
“Contrasts of the Soul” is an expansive work that blends literary prose with the psychological practice of Shadow Work. This is not another superficial self-help guide. It is a deep, intimate narrative of returning to oneself, enriched with minimalist visual accents.
What will you find across the 350 pages of this journey?
Literary depth:
20 extended essays and reflections rooted in metaphors of nature, designed to help you understand and name the most difficult emotions.
Five transformative stages:
A process that leads from accepting inner chaos, through discovering strength in solitude, to reclaiming intuition and authenticity.
Visual moments of stillness:
42 carefully selected black-and-white photographs of nature, framing each chapter and functioning as a form of visual meditation.
Space for self-reflection:
Each theme concludes with questions that offer no ready-made answers, but instead invite you into your own, personal shadow work.
Who is this book for?
For seekers of depth:
If short-form social media content no longer satisfies you and you long for literature you can truly sink into.
For those in transition:
Who wish to integrate difficult experiences and stop fighting their own emotions.
For lovers of minimalism:
Who value restraint and balance—where every word and every image carries meaning.
For those seeking calm:
This book was designed as a safe refuge-a place of rest from an overstimulated world.
Your darkness is not the absence of light.
It is its deepest completion.
Give yourself permission to be imperfect, multidimensional, and fully authentic.
Let “Contrasts of the Soul” accompany you as you reclaim inner harmony and strength.
Order your copy and begin to see what was once invisible.
Is it possible to feel too much-and end up feeling nothing at all?
Meet Anna.
Anna, who can walk through the worst crisis with a steady pulse of sixty beats per minute.
Anna, who traded being a wall of ice for becoming an addict of sensations.
In her powerful debut novel, the author takes the reader deep into the mechanics of trauma and emotional numbness. This is a journey through five stages of reclaiming the self-from a frozen childhood, through the flawless mask of adulthood, to risky experiments with pain as a way to feel alive again.
In this book, you will find:
A grounded portrayal of relational trauma - without embellishment, without unnecessary metaphors.
A somatic perspective - how the body stores fear, and why thinking about emotions alone is not enough to truly feel them.
A path toward integration - the process of building inner safety as the only real gateway to authenticity.
This book does not offer easy answers.
What it offers instead is an honest insight into what happens to a person who was forced to disconnect from themselves in order to survive.
It is a book for anyone who has ever felt like a bystander in their own life.
When the Ice Bleeds Out
When the Ice Bleeds Out is an uncompromising account of a woman’s return to life after decades of living as nothing more than an echo of other people’s expectations.
Trapped in the icy grip of trauma shaped by a psychopathic father and narcissistic partners, Anna escapes to Madeira. Yet it is not the island that brings her salvation, but a brutal confrontation with her inner abuser - the internalized voice of control, fear, and self-betrayal.
This book tells the story of reclaiming one’s own voice, the painful thawing of the body and senses, and the difficult work of setting real boundaries where paralyzing fear once ruled. It is a raw, honest, and unflinching examination of the process of emerging from trauma.
If you are looking for a story that does not romanticize healing or offer false comfort, but instead shows the real, embodied path toward freedom, this book is for you.
Inside this book, you will discover:
A disturbing and precise portrayal of manipulation mechanisms and their psychological impact on women.
The process of reparenting - learning how to become the mother and father you never had.
A journey through anger and physical intensity toward genuine, embodied freedom.
Guidance and inspiration to set boundaries that are not walls, but doors to your true self.
TROPHIES OF MY INNER WARS
TROPHIES OF INNER WARS
Have you ever felt that the world you see is nothing more than a thick, decorative screen?
Most of us take part in wars we don't understand, fighting for trophies that crumble to dust the moment we touch them. Money, status, recognition — these are nothing but Archontic mirages, designed to divert your attention from the only battle that truly matters: the war for your own sovereignty.
This book is the journal of an Observer — someone who sees more. It is an intimate treatise on the reflections that tear through the matrix of everyday life. The author guides us through the elements of earth, water, fire, and air to reveal how the system colonizes our bodies and minds. But she does not leave us in the darkness.
From every confrontation with fear, from every face-off with the Ego, and from every moment of decadent dissolution, the Narrator wrests trophies:
Silence that drowns out the Archontic noise.
Intuition that cuts through the lie like a scalpel.
Gnosis that restores the right to forge your own destiny.
This is not a book for those seeking comfort. This is a manifesto for those who love the elements, who feel the pulse of flint, and who know that true freedom begins where the need to be understood by the crowd ends.
Enter the labyrinth. Become the shadow in the matrix. Reclaim your spark.
"Victory is not the defeat of an enemy, but the realization that the enemy was only an illusion you yourself were keeping alive."
And never forget: You are not a drop in the ocean. You are the entire ocean in a single drop. You are the source.
You bought an iguana, or you're thinking about it. You have a terrarium, a lamp, a dandelion salad. You think you're ready.
You're not.
Mio. How to Win a Dragon's Heart is not another guide about temperatures and calcium-to-phosphorus ratios. It is eight years of real life with an iguana — from the first glance at an expo, through four years of coldness and distance, to the moment when a great green dragon came to my lap on his own and fell asleep.
The author takes you through everything you won't find in online articles: how to read an iguana's body language before things escalate, how to survive breeding season unscathed, how to build an environment that truly serves the animal, and how to recognize illness in a creature that masks weakness by instinct.
But above all — she asks you the question everyone should ask themselves before reaching for their wallet: will you love this animal just as much if it ever cuts your face?
In this book you will learn:
How to understand the full alphabet of iguana body language — from the dewlap to the tail
What to actually feed your dragon, and what never to give it
How to handle shedding, breeding season, and the first vet visit
How to create an environment built on freedom, not a cage
How to build a bond that other reptile keepers can only dream of
Mio is a book for those who want something more from their iguana than a decorative exhibit behind glass. For those who are willing to take off the leather gloves and learn humility from a creature that remembers the dinosaurs.
Your dragon is waiting. The question is whether you are ready.